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The Magnum Opus

August 21, 2008

Yes indeed, here’s the third draft of my short story:

Finding Solace

To feel the soothing touch of a loved one, to feel the warmth of a caring embrace, to feel the presence of a human being but once again… would you kill for that?

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Beware, lest you incur the wrath of the Fair Folk, my grandmother used to say. We all laughed at her, we always did. Yet we loved her stories. Crouched together before the hearth we listened to tales of beauty unheard of, of passion, of valour, of sorrow. But did we actually believe?

Of course we didn’t believe.

It all started… I wish I could tell you when it all started, but the passing of years mean less and less
to me as they go by. I was born and raised in the shadow of Bryn Myrddin, in the countryside of Wales. If I could still remember, I’d tell you about my family. I would tell you of my parents. Of how wonderful they were. At least I think they were. I like to think they were. And I would tell you of my little brother. And my two sisters. Or were they three? I do not know, and I am sad to say I do not care. For this story is not about them. It’s about me.

We loved to play, me and the other boys. Blue-eyes, Hopafoot, Sunshine. I don’t remember their names, but I do remember feelings, voices, some odd features. A pair of eyes, a swollen foot, a blonde fringe. Our favourite game was hide-and-seek and that, that is where it all began. At a simple little game of hide-and-seek.

My favourite hiding place was deep inside the woods a few hundred yards from our little hamlet. Walking through an enclosed sheep pasture you could get up on the far side of the hill, of Bryn Myrddin, and there amid the gnarled old beeches and dense thickets of ferns was my favourite spot in this world. There was something eerie about that place, especially during the autumn when milky white wisps of mist emerged from the deep reaches of the woods to caress my cool skin. But that was not the true cause of the mystical charm of that place. No, the true cause was the ancient well.

Maybe well is the wrong word to use. It was more of a natural stone basin, not more than a fathom across. If it had been carved by nature or the hands of man I do not know but by then it had at least become part of the surroundings, continually being filled up by a small brook that was purling down the hill. There I used to sit – with my back against the well and the rippling of the brook singing in my ears – for hours while the other boys were vainly overturning every single hay stack back home in search of me. I never saw a living soul there, neither did I ever tell anyone of it. It was my special place in this world, only mine. Or so I thought.

I hadn’t even reached the well when I realized something was not as it should be that day. I couldn’t really put my finger on it at first but as I delved deeper among the beeches I felt that something was wrong. Really wrong. Maybe it was the song of the blackbirds in the usually so silent woods, maybe it was the out of place scent of apple blossoms, or maybe it was the chilling touch of the mist on a summers eve. But nothing of that unsettled me as much as the woman I found sitting with her back against my well.

Of all the things hidden deep within my memories of the past, two things stand out. Two things remain clear and free of the shadows of oblivion. It’s the well. And it’s her.

So, where should I start? The eyes, the bright, shining eyes? The flowing mane of hair? The divinely smooth skin?

No. I shall start with her voice.

“Who are you?” she called out as I entered the clearing. The sky seemed to ripple above us as her harsh words tore through the air. There was something uncanny about her voice. Something distinctly inhuman. It was like iron clanging upon iron, and a deep echo remained long after she had fallen silent.

“Who are you?” she demanded once again, her voice rising to a ghastly shriek that made my blood freeze. I was dead frightened. Paralyzed. I couldn’t but watch this fell woman staring at me with her bright blue eyes, glistening with a frosty shine.

“Who dare defile this place?”

I didn’t see her get up but suddenly she was standing right in front of me, just some two feet away. The curious scent of apple blossoms nearly overwhelmed me as she came closer, her pale pink dress flowing in a wind from nowhere.

“I’m just a boy”, I stammered at last. Then I closed my eyes and fell down on my knees to await judgement from this fey woman, her pallid face framed by flowing jet-black hair etched on my retina.

“Why have you come here… boy?”

Her voice was calm, resembling a soft breeze rather than the thunderous roars of before. But I still wouldn’t look up. I hid my face in my hands. Weeping tears of fright.

“I come here to be alone”, I sobbed, “to find solace.”

“I wish I could find solace in loneliness”, she replied thoughtfully, her voice sinking to a deep, soothing whisper.

“I’ll… I’ll… just go home and let you be”, I sobbed desperately.

“No”, she whispered. A cool breeze caressed my skin and one smooth finger touched my forehead. “I’ll leave you… alone.”

And with that the scent of apple blossoms was gone. The chilly winds were gone. The singing of the blackbirds was gone. At long last I opened my eyes. The mists lingered. But I was alone.

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My memories grow dim at this point. The pictures fade into a deep darkness. Thick layers of mist seem to separate me from the world I once knew. The mists yes, ever the mists. They seem to have become my faithful companions, my friends, my lovers, my family, my fate. But even though they have clouded my mind’s eye, my feelings keep running free of their reins, ever as passionate, ever as painful as once they were. And I shall never forget how I felt upon coming home on that fateful eve.

I was sure the others must have been found hours ago when at long last I came staggering back to the hamlet. I returned to the barn to join them but no one was there. I searched all of our usual haunts, but no one was there. I called out their names: Blue-eyes, Sunshine, Hopafoot, poor little Hopafoot, I shall never make fun of your limp again if you’ll just show yourself!

But no one was there.

As the blackness of dusk shrouded our hamlet I finally returned home. Tears of anger, spite and fear were burning in my eyes as I entered the place I had always believed would be my bulwark of defence against the horrors of the outside world. How could I possibly have imagined I would receive my deepest wounds in that very place?

The scent of dinner lay thick in the air when I entered and I felt a pang of disappointment as I saw they had started without me. Mother and Father were there, and little brother, my sisters, and Grandmother of course.

“I’m home”, I called out, a ravening hunger burning inside me.

No reaction.

“Mother, I’m home”, I shrieked, my hunger overshadowed by agony and fright once again.

Still there was no reaction.

I fell down on my knees, tears streaming and beastly claws tearing at my heart. “Look at me”, I sobbed.

Then, at long last Grandmother looked up. She seemed to be gazing at a spot behind me for a moment, then with a sad look upon her face she turned back to her plate. The others hadn’t stopped eating at all.

At that moment I realized there was no chair for me. Howling like a dying animal I dashed into our bedroom just to come upon my worst fear.

There was no bed for me.

However, slamming the bedroom door open gave me just the sign of life I had desired. As I sat there in what had once been my bedroom, alone with the ever-growing anguish, I heard one thing.

The silence.

They had stopped eating. I heard hushed whispers, and not even the fact that I couldn’t understand their words seemed to bother me then. Father stood up and closed the bedroom door. Shut inside my old bedroom a curious feeling of glee drove away my pain. With a twisted laughter I slammed the door open once again.

I am ashamed to admit it, but at that moment I savoured every inch of Father’s horror stricken face.

In a sudden rampaging rage that deafened every sense I unleashed all of my anguish and sorrow upon the kitchen. I could describe clattering of plates, dusty clouds of flour, breaking of furniture or haply the shrieks of my family. But then I would be lying. I don’t remember that. I remember but one thing. And that is the feeling of satisfaction as I looked upon the havoc that I had wreaked.

Though, that sense of satisfaction didn’t last long. Minutes later I found myself running out of the village and springing into the inky darkness of the night time woods. I was tripped by roots and stones, scourged by branches and twigs, and burned by an ever-growing fire in my lungs. But I kept on running, kept on striding, kept on springing, until I fell down exhausted on the very top of Bryn Myrddin. For how long I lay there, I do not know.

***

When my memories grow clearer again I was far away from Bryn Myrddin, further than I had ever been. Maybe I had already crossed the sea I do not know, and neither does it matter. I had become alien to all humanity, be it in Wales, in France, the New World, the sun-scorched South or the furthest East. The first years were nothing but an escape from the world and myself. Every day I found new hamlets, new towns, new cities, but nowhere did I belong, and for every human being that saw right through me I sank deeper into despair. Too juvenile of mind to really understand a deathwish I kept on fleeing. As the years passed by the thought of ending it all did descend upon me every now and then. However, there was something more important. I needed answers. I needed to know, needed to know what had happened to me. My flight turned to a search, no, a hunt. A hunt for the woman who had started it all.

Year upon year passed by. The cities of mankind reached for the heaven above. Black clouds of smoke veiled our world. And nowhere did I find her. Not in Wales, not in France, not the New World, not the sun-scorched South, nor the furthest East. I could have wandered for eternity, but fate list something else. At long last she found me.

***

I was awakened by birdsong this morning. Looking up at the dawning sun I found myself amid a whole choir of blackbirds greeting me with shrill tones. An odd feeling of content growing inside I stood up to greet them.

“Where’s your mistress?” I called out and as one the blackbirds set out towards the east. Tirelessly I followed them over fields and through woods with a fresh breeze of spring caressing my face and not until the sun had reached its highest point in the sky did we stop.

I am sure numerous ages of man must have passed but she hadn’t changed at all. Resting against the biggest apple tree that I have ever laid my eyes upon she silently contemplated me with the same bright blue eyes as had haunted my dreams for as long as I can remember. White and pink petals of apple blossoms seemed to be snowing from the gnarled branches and a bright pink layer of leaves lay as a blanket upon the ground. I wanted to rage, I wanted to hate. I wished for an all consuming frenzy to rise within me but all thoughts of anger and spite were deafened by her calm gaze. A long moment of silence and stillness passed by before she finally spoke:

“Won’t you sit down here beside me, boy?”

The last traces of hatred died within me as I heard her voice. This woman, the monster and demon of my ages of solitude was pleading. She was pleading to me. Slowly I walked forward but I stopped a few steps away from her.

“Are you afraid?”

I nodded slowly. Yes, I was afraid, but I didn’t know of what.

She offered me a weak smile and answered my nod.

Silence.

At last I cleared my throat and asked the question that had plagued me for so many years:

“Who are you?”

“Call me Eglantine.”

“Is that your name?”

“No.”

Silence.

“Do you have a name, boy?”

“I did.”

“You don’t remember?”

“No.”

Two crystalline tears trickled down her cheeks.

“I am sorry.”

“What did you do to me?”

“Won’t you sit down beside me?”

“No.”

She nodded slowly and contemplated the pink blossoms before her.

“You are fae-touched, boy.”

“What… do you mean?”

“That was the greatest dream of the heroes of old.”

“But I am no hero of old.”

She nodded once again and for a long while the silence was broken only by the faint rustling of falling blossoms.

“No one believes in the old stories anymore”, she sighed at last.

“What does that have to do with me?”

“That’s why you don’t belong, boy.”

“I don’t understand.”

“Humans don’t believe we exist, therefore we don’t.”

“Beware, lest you incur the wrath of the Fair Folk”, I whispered to myself.

“That’s right”, she replied with a short nod.

“Are there more?”

She shrugged hesitantly.

“I’m the only one left.”

“Why?”

“Most of my kin faded away as humanity ceased honouring our sacred oaths and groves, as humanity ceased believing.”

“And what about you?”

“I linger. I cling to this ghostly life.”

“Why?”

“Because I fear… what lies beyond.”

Silence.

“Won’t you… sit down beside me?”

“Yes.”

I walked the last few steps and sat down to her left. Smiling sadly she grasped my hand with icy cold fingers.

“Thank you.”

We sat like that for a long time. But I had one question left. One that my soul was burning to ask.

“Is there anything I can do?”

After what felt like an eternal silence she finally nodded.

“You can master the art of humanity.”

“What is that?”

“The thing that truly sets us apart. The thing that a faerie would never do.”

“Is it hard?”

“No. But you have to live with it ever after.”

“I would do anything.”

“Anything?”

“Yes.”

She let go of my hand and stood up with more tears trickling down her cheeks. Turning her back against me she started walking away.

“Wait”, I called out, “what is it? The art?”

She span around and met my gaze one last time.

“It’s perfectly simple”, she sneered. “What do you humans do that no one else would? You kill each other. It’s the art of death.”

And with that a violent gust of wind whipped up the fallen blossoms to a cloud of pink and white. When they had finally lain down to rest again I was alone.

***

To feel the soothing touch of a loved one, to feel the warmth of a caring embrace, to feel the presence of a human being but once again… would you kill for that?

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E-writing Assignment 4

August 20, 2008

A Turn of Tables

”Good… day.”

You can almost touch the silence.

A table. An old lamp. Rough stone walls veiled by the murky shadows. And two, yes you can see two, human beings.

She is young, far too young to be doing this, isn’t she? She could have become an actress, perhaps a singer. She does have the looks anyway. Not that you can see any of that now. No, all traces of beauty are hidden behind heavily rimmed glasses, a painstakingly correct pony tail of blonde hair and the white uniform of her profession. But try to imagine, yes, you can see it, can’t you? Try to imagine how she would look like dressed up in satin and lace, with heavy eye-shadow and a scarlet lipstick. She’s just gorgeous, isn’t she? But that was months ago. That was when she was still at the university. She’s a psychiatrist now, and satin and lace won’t do now, will it?

She clears her throat.

And again.

She skims through her papers. Swallows.

And clears her throat. Again.

“Mr… J-…

Mr…

    Joker.”

He looks up.

He meets her gaze.

Dark bloodshot eyes. The eyes of a predator. He’s going to kill her. Going to tear her apart. Going to… consume her.

No. Of course he’s not. She must focus. Don’t let him see your fear. Don’t let him feel it.

“Yes?”

There is a certain charm about his voice. A soothing, calming tone.

Silence.

His faultlessly made-up face gleams with a ghostly white colour in the light of the old, slightly buzzing lamp.

At last it’s he who breaks the silence.

“Are you… afraid?”

The words seem to awaken her from a deep coma. She shrugs.

Clears her throat.

“No.”

His crimson lips slowly curl into an unsettling smirk.

“I am doctor Arlene. Arlene Quincelle. I am…”

“You are here to judge my sanity?”

At those words she loses the tiny bit of confidence that she had managed to hold on to. You can see it. In her face. In her bearing.

She is afraid.

And he can most certainly see it.

“No.”

Her voice isn’t much more than a high-pitched squeak.

She clears her throat.

“You have already gotten your sentence.”

“And…?”

“I am here… to… treat you.”

It begins as a low mumbling within his chest. But it grows. It turns to a low chuckle. And suddenly he is laughing at the top of his voice. And it’s not the kind of laughter that makes you happy. It’s not the kind of laughter that rubs off on you.

It’s the kind of laughter that makes you feel thankful you are not there. It’s the kind of laughter that makes Arlene feel thankful he’s wearing a straitjacket.

She tries to sit it out. She strains every nerve. And eventually

he stops. And at that moment she gets the curious sensation. That it’s all a game.

Once again he burrows his eyes into hers. The crimson smirk is back on his face.

“So… miss Quincelle, where do you want to start?”

She swallows.

“Where did it start?”

“Are you familiar with Commedia dell’Arte?”

She had heard a lot about this man. She had listened to policemen and witnesses. She had read journals and newspapers. But never would she have expected that question.

“It’s that Italian kind of theatre… isn’t it?”

You can see that he loves her answer. And she can see it as well. She is inferior. Again.

“An Italian kind of theatre yes, right you are, miss Quincelle. But do you know what it is about?”

She shrugs. And looks down. She had expected fear, yes she was prepared for that. But she hadn’t imagined, she hadn’t prepared for… shame.

His smirk widens to reveal his yellowed teeth as he leans closer over the table.

“At its core it’s a struggle between the vecchi – the elders that is – and their servants and inferiors, the zanni. Do you follow me?”

She nods. She is back at school. The tutor wears a straitjacket and the make-up of a clown. But it’s all the same. She is an inferior. She is a stupid girl. She needs to be taught by those who know better. She has been in that role for so long. She doesn’t even have to think to switch back.

“Now, that probably sounds like an uneven battle, don’t you think? Of course the elders – the rulers if you wish – will win. They have the power, they have the law. But, then there’s the Arlecchino. The Arlecchino turns the tables. He is the missing link, the unexpected twist of the plot. He is the element of chaos. Do you follow?”

She nods. She looks up. She clears her throat.

“You are… the Arlecchino?”

He nods. He winks. He leans back in his chair.

“You expected me to be a simple brute, didn’t you, miss Quincelle?”

She nods. Carefully. And she shots wary glances at him as if afraid he might… explode.

“Well, we had guessed you were an enforcer or hitman…”

“Oh, but I was a hitman…”

His smirk turns into more of a smile. Yes, it’s definitely a kind of nostalgic smile.

“A brilliant hitman. A hitman with finesse.”

“Who did you work for?”

Gone is the nervous school girl Arlene. Here’s the other side of the coin. The ambitious young woman. The brilliant young student. She who would be famous. She who would… unlock the Joker.

“Isn’t that obvious?”

He sniggers and catches her gaze.

She shrugs.

“With my flair for Italian theatre?”

“You worked for the Mafia? Don Valestra himself?”

He nods slowly. Winks at her.

“Old man Salvatore Valestra himself.”

Frantically she tears open her notebook and starts scribbling. But amid the scratching of her pen there is another sound. A chuckle. The low chortling of her patient. She looks up and takes in his appearance. From the perfectly even, yellowed teeth of his smile to the alien green hue of his jet-black hair. She tries to stifle a shudder.

“Why… are you telling me this?”

A sly smirk.

“Because you are not going to tell anyone else, are you?”

No, she isn’t going to tell anyone else, is she?

She shrugs slowly. Puts away pen and paper.

“That’s a good girl. Now let’s get to more important matters.”

He licks his crimson lips.

“I need to be out of here by Friday. You will help me, will you not?”

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A Date with the Devil

June 19, 2008

OK, so here’s my first assignment (based on these rules). And this is my first try at comedy so don’t be too hard on me… 😉

A Date with the Devil

She hurried out of her brick house on a brisk October morning. A few rare rays of sunlight illuminated the first rain free morning in weeks. However that was not enough to satisfy Rowena Taylor. Cursing wildly at the malfunctioning alarm clock, she quickly navigated the windling streets of London on her way to work. Most people would probably call Rowena beautiful but her uncombed hair and disastrous make-up, not to mention the beastly sneer of today would most likely put anyone off. Though, as a certain American once said: All generalizations are false, including this one, and the living proof of that was just now standing before poor Rowena on a pavement that was definitely too small for two people to pass each other.

“Good morning”, the above mentioned living proof said in a deep voice with a rather peculiar accent.

Not only would most people call Rowena beautiful, they would also call her curt and polite, but you know what a bad day can do to anyone’s manners, and that was true for her as well. Mumbling something unintelligible under her breath she stepped aside onto the street to get past the stranger. And I know I shouldn’t be too hard on Rowena, after all she was having a really awful day. I would forgive her bad manners if I knew the reason, yes, I would even get past her ghastly demeanour. Then again some things just can’t be explained away. Some things are just plain stupid. Walking out on a street right in front of a bus is one of those things. Luckily for her though, a stranger with a peculiar accent was there to save the day.

Rowena never had time to realize the danger before a heavy hand grabbed her neck and threw her off the street, and not until a huge reddish vehicle roared past her did she understand what had been about to happen. However, this day’s stock of surprises for poor Rowena was far from out yet and as she sat there in a puddle of water on the pavement she finally laid her eyes upon the guardian angel of hers.

He was dressed up in a checked suit and wore a scarlet bowler hat upon his head. Greasy greying hair framed his sunken eyes while the rest of his face was dominated by a moustache that can only be described as gargantuan. I’ve always liked that word… gargantuan… so rarely have an opportunity to use it in a sentence. Anyway, back to our hero of the day. Not only was he an efficient and energetic fellow, he was also modest enough to bow deeply to Rowena before addressing her again:

“Good morning, Serafino Stella del Mattino at your service.”

“Begyourpardon?” our shocked Rowena blurted out.

“Serafino Stella del Mattino. Just call me Stan.”

”Stan?”

”Stan.”

A few moments of awkward silence passed by before he reached out a hand to help her up. Panting slightly she curtsied and forced a smile.

“I… really owe… you know… thanks… but I am late… and… you know… work…”

“Oh, don’t be silly”, the enigmatic stranger chuckled.

“But I…”

“They just can’t need you all the time, can they?”

“Well…”

At that moment a high-pitched ringtone shrieked out from her handbag. Murmuring an excuse she picked up her mobile and answered:

“Taylor.”
“You are late it seems.”

The fateful voice of her boss sent shivers down her spine.
“I am truly sorry I will…”

“Oh no, no problem at all.”

“Sorry?”

“Just you stay at home and take a well deserved break. We have no rush here anyway.”

And with those words he hung up. Stan winked at the baffled Rowena as she dropped the phone in her handbag and stared at him in disbelief.

“You do look terrible today, my dear, why don’t we just sit down and have a little chat?”

She didn’t really understand how it came about but some two minutes later the two of them were sitting in comfy armchairs in a dimly lit café with a heavy scent of oriental spices in the air. The man who called himself Stan sipped on a cappuccino and smiled serenely.

“Now you must forgive me, my dear Rowena, but I am not at all familiar with the customs of your country…”

“I never told you my name”, she snapped in a rather ungrateful tone, especially to someone who has just saved your life and treated you to some hot coffee.

“Indeed you didn’t, is there a problem?”

“Well, I… I guess not”, Rowena replied confusedly, “but, who are you?”

“As I said; Serafino Stella del Mattino”, he said, smiling a bit too widely, “I am a lawyer, a prosecutor even.”

Rowena swallowed and contemplated her coffee in silence.

“And now, over to you, my dear Rowena, what do you do?”

“I work in the Church of Saint Bartholomew-the-Less.”

“Oh, that truly is lovely!” he shouted out excitedly, “what do you do in the Church of Saint Bartholomew-the-Less?”

“Just being a caretaker… doing some house keeping, cleaning… you know, nothing grandiose.”

“But that is wonderful”, he chortled loudly, spilling cappuccino all over the table as he stood up and waved his arms in excitement.

“Uhm…” Rowena started feeling more and more awkward about the whole situation and I can’t but urge you to feel some sympathy for her. After all, how would you feel sitting next to a tremendously laughing Italian with a gargantuan moustache? (Not to mention the checked suit!)

“Do you believe in God?” he carried on in a booming voice that could probably be heard a block away, still chortling to himself all the while.

“Uhm… actually… well, no… I guess”, she answered hesitantly, waiting nervously for his next fit of excitement which by the way came a moment later:

“You are a truly wonderful woman, Rowena my dear! Then I guess you don’t believe in the Devil either?”

“Well… naturally I don’t…”

With a roaring laughter he sat down in his armchair again, pounding his legs and wiping tears from his eyes. “Lovely… just utterly charming”, he snickered to himself between the chuckles.

“Excuse me, mr… Stan, but I fail to see what’s so entertaining…”

“My dear little Rowena”, he broke her off, “you’re a treasure! What does your heart desire?”

“Pardon?”

“What does your heart desire?” he roared, making the windows rattle dangerously.

“Uhm… I’ve always needed a car”, she squeaked.

“Fantastic! Take one! Take two! Take three!”

Loud screeching of car tyres accompanied his shouting and moments later three cars came crashing into the café, sending shattered glass, debris and furniture flying across the room.

“Or perhaps something more elegant?” he continued with his hair on end and dust all over his suit, “a Mercedes!”

His words were followed by a fourth car appearing out of thin air in the middle of the café. Rowena who had spent the last few seconds hidden under a table suddenly found herself sitting in the driver’s seat with a glass of champagne in hand and The Velvet Underground playing on the stereo. The mysterious stranger, suddenly all nice and clean again, winked at her before turning on his heels and strutting away in the direction of the demolished entrance. Rowena wanted to shout something, but neither her body nor her brain seemed to work properly and she couldn’t but silently watch the stranger leave. He stopped on the threshold and picked up a pocket watch from his jacket.

“Dio mio”, he chuckled to himself, “she doesn’t believe in the Devil.”

Then, with a bright red flash he was gone. And at that very moment, she just knew.

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Yet another blog

June 13, 2008

Yes, indeed. Seems I can’t get enough. This one actually has a purpose though..

…and since this is supposed to be about literature, why not start by quoting one of the masters? (a bonus point to the one who recognizes it…)

    Who shall see a white ship
    leave the last shore,
    the pale phantoms
    in her cold bosom
    like gulls wailing?

    Who shall heed a white ship,
    vague as a butterfly,
    in the flowing sea
    on wings like stars,
    the sea surging,
    the foam blowing,
    the wings shining,
    the light fading?

    Who shall hear the wind roaring
    like leaves of forests;
    the white rocks snarling
    in the moon gleaming,
    in the moon waning,
    in the moon falling,
    a corpse-candle;
    the storm mumbling,
    the abyss moving?

    Who shall see the clouds gather,
    the heavens bending
    upon crumbling hills,
    the sea heaving,
    the abyss yawning,
    the old darkness
    beyond the stars
    falling
    upon fallen towers?

    Who shall heed a broken ship
    on the black rocks
    under broken skies,
    a bleared sun blinking
    on bones gleaming
    in the last morning?
    Who shall see the last evening?